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December 22, 2018

A caption on a photo of Trump in the New York Times says, “President Trump has grown increasingly suspicious of many of the people around him, convinced that they are fools.”

Classic psychopathic mindset!


The Sun Sets in the West #3

December 18, 2018

One gloomy grey afternoon in the late winter of 1972, I was walking around Seattle’s Capitol Hill thinking about things when it dawned on me that the central idea of American life—that every generation must have a higher standard of living than the generation that preceded it—was an impossibility. I‘d never read anything about economics, but I understood that resources are limited. I also saw that even if we could accomplish it, it would be a bad idea since we’d overheat the planet to the point that it was uninhabitable. I thought it was something that even a child could understand, and yet most politicians, economists, and intellectuals did not see it—or at least wouldn’t admit to seeing. They didn’t dare because anyone in a powerful position who said such a thing would be scorned as a heretic and lose their position. I came home from that walk feeling that America was doomed, that when a nation’s core idea is false, there’s no hope for it. And for the great mass of Americans—liberal and conservative, Democrats and Republicans—a constantly rising standard of living has been our central idea. It’s only been a question of how we accomplish it. Over the decades I’ve been simultaneously adding to the detail of my understanding (that we would lose jobs to cheaper overseas markets was obvious to me long before it started) and watching the country steadily fall apart. The election of Donald Trump to the presidency is stark evidence of that fall. But I’ve come to believe that it is not just America that is in a state of collapse. The situation is much more complex—more epochal—than that.

There is an ancient, ongoing problem with human evil, which I think is the only real evil. Many people I know don’t like the word because it takes on the aura of a bogus religious force—medieval ideology. But evil is simply egotism—something we’re all familiar with. At times, the effects of our egotism become so overwhelming that we’re roused to try to counteract it. In the Western world, there have been at least three major efforts: Greek philosophy, Christianity, and most recently the movement that began around the late 17th century known as the Enlightenment. I think what we’re seeing right now is the collapse of the Enlightenment values—democracy, progress, equality, individual freedom, reason, science, and so on. It’s happening in both America and Europe. I think the last election, Trump vs. Clinton, was representative of that collapse. It pitted a representative of hardcore egotism versus a representative of traditional Enlightenment values, and evil won. It’s important to understand why, but not many commentators, politicians, journalists, or intellectuals do. This series, which I’m calling “The Sun Sets in the West,” and which I’ll work on as I find the time, is devoted to my particular understanding of it.

Obamacare struck down by Texas Judge

December 14, 2018

I find Texas law every bit as unacceptable as Shariah law. I will not live under the rule of these assholes. There is a real need to oppose absolutely the so-called conservatives who are in reality just monstrous egotists. They think they are winning a culture war, but they are really tearing apart the nation. Their ideas are evil, and evil ideas are self-destructive. Fact.


May 15, 2018

When the world is vicious,
And the path is vicious,
Who can feel welcome anywhere?

Egotism and Freedom

February 22, 2018

Wayne LaPierre says that gun control advocates hate individual freedom. Like a lot of right wingers, he mistakes egotism for freedom. They are not the same. People who are tied up in egotism are not free. They are slaves to all kinds of paranoia and suffer terribly when it comes time to die. To die gracefully you have to be able to let go of life. An egotist can’t do it. He inevitably finds death a terrifying experience. To be genuinely free requires a tremendous amount of internal work—work that men like Wayne LaPierre refuse to have anything to do with. They are the real slackers.

Progress Report #104

November 28, 2016

This is a essentially an expansion of my last Progress Report.

I’m ten and a half years now into my memoir, Street Song. It’s been ten and a half years of constant work, so obviously it’s been a difficult project. Why take so many years out of one’s life to talk about the past? That’s something I’m still trying to come to grips with. It’s been some comfort to know that there are people eager to read the book. What I want to do here is to explain at some length what I’m trying to do and where I am in the process.

What am I trying to do? The book began with an image I had of myself sitting on the porch of an SRO hotel in North Beach watching people pass by me. I’d had that image for several years before I started work. When I finally started writing, the book went elsewhere, which has always struck me as peculiar. But books write themselves. If you struggle to take it in a direction that your conscious mind prefers, all you encounter is endless conflict. I’d been trying to keep the finished manuscript at around 350 pages, but I see now that it’s going to be longer. I understand why. I was born into a very conventional family in middle America, but I’ve ended up—philosophically, spiritually, intellectually, psychologically, whatever word you want to use—far, far from there. The book traces the nuances of that development. Nothing I say about anything will be understandable or believable unless I show the twists and turns. It’s not that I’ve arrived at some quirky individual mindset that I think might make entertaining reading. I write because, while traveling a highly unusual path, I discovered some fundamental realities that are universally true and have been either forgotten or consciously dismissed by the modern world. They are not my ideas. I believe that if we don’t get back to them we are doomed.

Where am I in the process? I had to do a lot of research before I could even begin writing. I’ve seldom kept any kind of journal, so I had to piece together my past. It was laborious. The research continues to this day—although there is much less to do. When I finally started on the manuscript, I wrote a quick, moderately long first draft. The second draft was nearly 1,000 pages, which I knew was much more than I would ever use. My approach was inspired by the Chinese sage Lao-tse: “If we wish to compress something, we must first let it fully expand.” So now I’m on the third and final draft. I have an outline that calls for 48 chapters—although that could get cut down as I move through the manuscript. I’ve completed the first 14 chapters, which I call Section One and regard as the foundation for the rest of the book. It took a long time to find the right balance and compression to build that foundation. I’ve finished Chapter 15, the beginning of “the rest of the book,” and, as I hoped, the writing has sped up considerably. I’m able to bring my Draft Two material straight across and focus on editing it down to a reasonable length. That wasn’t possible with the first fourteen chapters. I’m optimistic that I can go on a roll now. I need to get this book off my plate.

Progress Report #102

May 28, 2016

This event isn’t in the book, but took place during the period I’m currently writing about. My date and I before attending the Joffrey Ballet. 1971.

The pace has been picking up some as my working methods for my work in progress, Street Song, have become more clear. It’s been ten years now, so some clarity ought to be expected! I have completed 13 chapters (chapters 1-11 as well as two other chapters from later in the manuscript) out of 48 chapters projected. The first seven chapters took a long time to get straight, but the channel was dug in those first seven chapter, and the water is flowing in the desired direction. I just finished my second pass through Chapter 12 and will do one, maybe two more before heading on to Chapter 13. Overall, I’m on the third and final draft of the entire book. I project another year of work and then I should be finished. Somebody asked me if I would have started this project if I’d known how hard it would  be and how long it would take. I couldn’t answer. Probably yes, but I couldn’t swear to it.

Progress Report #101 and the State of the Blog Address

February 11, 2016

Hello? Hello? Anybody here?

I know I’ve been neglecting this blog. It’s been difficult getting to it, again, because of my book, Street Song. Anytime I have the energy to write, I always feel I should be putting it into the book. At the same time, I don’t want to abandon this blog. I started it up because there wasn’t anybody saying what I wanted to hear said, which is still true.

As for the book, I’m almost finished with chapter 10, and I have two chapters much later in the manuscript completed as well, for a total of 12 finished chapters. I have 48 chapters outlined, which makes me a quarter of the way through the book. (This is the last draft.) It’s almost 10 years now, but I can see the end. For reasons too tedious to explain, these first 10 chapters have been the most difficult to write. The pace will pick up with Chapter 11. I see one task that I have to attend to soon. Within the first seven chapters especially, I have about twice as much book as I want. I need to do some editing, compressing, cutting, which I don’t think will be too hard. There’s always a little cleanup to do after that kind of surgery, though. I can say beyond any doubt that I’ve learned a great deal writing Street Song. You might think that’s a no-brainer, but I’ve always tended to regard writing as an expression of what one already knows. But that has not been the case here. It’s been a real meditation that has changed me. I understand certain things now that I didn’t understand before.

As for this blog, like I said, I don’t want to abandon it. I have one idea on how I can stick with it. It can never supersede my work on the book, but there’s a lot happening in the world right now, and I’m eager to speak my mind. I’ve been on Facebook a bunch lately, but you can’t really go into any depth there. It’s fast and ephemeral — more cheerleading than anything else, as I have told a number of people. I’m sure I’ve lost a lot of readers here, but I aim to make a return. Not many people hold the views I do. Because we live in a democracy, there is a tendency to think that whatever the majority of the population believes is the correct view. I don’t see it that way. I think humanity has gone way off the track. There’s a lot I want to say about that.

I Did It

June 10, 2015

I’m now on Facebook. I don’t really know how it works yet. I don’t suppose I’m difficult to find. And I need all the friends I can get…

Speaking Gig at Evergreen College

October 10, 2014

For anyone within driving distance and who has the interest, I’m giving a talk at the Evergreen College Longhouse Education and Cultural Center at 7 pm on October 30. The theme of the talk is “Paying Attention.” It will be followed by a screening of the documentary film, The Wild Parrots of Telegraph Hill. I’m being brought up to Evergreen College under the auspices of the Willi Unsoeld Seminar Series. The event is free and open to the public. The address is 2700 Evergreen Parkway NW, Olympia WA.

I’m looking forward to this. A breath of fresh air. Hope to see you there.